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Life is miserable

2011-09-01T17:47:00.000Z

When the going gets tough, I get TOUGHER! Another 2 months more, I will be free. Free from all the things in my head. I will be able to fend for myself and get things started for my "dreams" to materialize. It is just a matter of timing rather than money though money does matters the most! As usual, life has never been kind to me. It keeps throwing all the pebbles onto my otherwise smooth pathway to distract me and defeats my mental toughness. I wish this world is perfect. But the reality always pull me back to square one each time I try to wander away from the cruel reality I am living in. I wouldn't describe my current life as cruel but rather Unfortunate would be the more accurate term to describe it. As my sister says it best, I am a spoiled kid being pampered with so much luxuries that she didn't enjoy back in the old days. Well, I couldn't deny that since there are few instances where people around me did said that to me right in my face. When the words comes out from the mouth of few people, i suppose that would be true to some extent. Whatever other people say about me, if i do care about it one bit, i guess i would not be here typing this tonight. I have low EQ but trust me i am doing everything within my control to improve on it. I don't really know the main purpose that triggers the bug inside me to pen something on this blog tonight. But i have to admit i am emotionally disturbed right now at this moment. Peace is all i want. I miss you, papa.

I miss baby soooo much.......

2010-09-28T15:53:00.001Z

Aku rindu padamu :)

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Current book im reading

2010-07-26T19:50:00.001Z

One of d books in my collection

Jason Loke Kok Yong

2010-07-26T19:14:00.001Z

100% original. No acting. Fool-proof. This is how jason sleeps at nite. This picture was taken without his knowledge when he stay over at my place during d group study for exam.

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Malaysia's version of leaning tower

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Teluk intan

Pangkor

2010-07-26T19:03:00.001Z

I love this kind of view...

Pangkor

2010-07-26T19:02:00.001Z

Its quite sad that we only discovered this lovely place on d day we leave pangkor

Pangkor

2010-07-26T19:00:00.001Z

Nice beach

Pangkor

2010-07-26T18:59:00.001Z

DAP make its presence felt in pangkor

Pangkor

2010-07-26T18:58:00.001Z

Foh san dim sum n mooncake

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Ipoh

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Ho ho ho.

2010-01-05T14:44:00.001Z

My biggest loyal supporter..;)

Sweet

2009-12-31T13:08:00.001Z

Happy new year folks! Best wishes frm wei.:-D

Merry christmas!

2009-12-25T17:08:00.001Z

Had lunch cum dinner with my dear at kim gary 4christmas celebration.:-) she said i vy fierce. :-( i told her d ear ring is vy nice.:-) tats bcoz d wearer is a nice beautiful girl with a sweet sweet smile n yet shy shy. :-)I love you so much baby! Muax!*hugging you tightly* merry christmas

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2009-12-09T01:09:00.001Z

i found it...

2009-07-13T16:51:00.002Z

"We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful about what we pretend to be"

:)

Finally i found it........

2009-07-12T17:29:00.004Z

Februari 14 - Gigi

Empat belas Februari Bertemu
Menjalani Kisah Cinta Ini
Naluri Berkata Engkaulah Milikku
Bahagia Selalu Dimiliki
Bertahun Menjalani Bersamamu
Kunyatakan bahwa Engkaulah jiwaku

Akulah Penjagamu
Akulah Pelindungmu
Akulah Pendampingmu
Di setiap langkah-langkahmu

Pernahku Menyakiti Hatimu
Pernah kau melupakan janji ini
Semua Karena kita ini manusia

Akulah Penjagamu
Akulah Pelindungmu
Akulah Pendampingmu
Di setiap langkah-langkahmu

Chorus:
Kau bawa diriku
Kedalam hidupmu
Kau basuh diriku
Dengan rasa sayang
Senyummu juga sedihmu adalah Hidupku
Kau sentuh cintaku dengan lembut
Dengan sejuta warna

Go to this link for the video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5x6koVPAS-I

a very nice song from indon band, Gigi.......

Dedicate this song to YOU.......
YOU know who YOU are.... :)

(But i edited a vy vy small portion of the original lyric:P)

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2009-07-06T17:19:00.002Z

A bloody idiot neighbour who thought they are so smart ass and thought we are afraid of them because they are fierce and educated......

Sorry...they mess with the wrong people..... Silence doesn't mean that we are coward........ We are one united family and YOU saw it today......

All hells broke loose tonight and our patience had run out with this idiotic neighbour who thought we are afraid of them.... I screwed them left right center down straight on their face and my sis too as her usual self screwed them but in a polite and factful way...... an educated person? so-called a professional and graduate from one local university namely Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia? Hell no.... Using foul words and throw all sorts of bad words and allegations at us without any respect to us in the presence of other neighbours... Whats more asking help from his so-called macho father in law who are loud and fierce to attack us verbally? can u imagine two big guys shouting at me and one helpless woman? i would say that is a coward's act....Shit man... I may looked like a small boy with innocent looks(perhaps, i don't so) but don't mess around with a kiddo,man.....

They called in police..... police came and geleng kepala.....

I also geleng kepala but i was a happy man.......... I saw my brother, sisters and mum together with my sausau and my incoming brother in-law stand united in the battle of words and arguments and walked out of the battle victorious...... That was indeed a moment to be remembered............. :)

So Far Away & Right Here by Staind

2009-04-08T15:29:00.002Z

This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I've shared
And these are my dreams
That I'd never lived before
Somebody shake me
Cause I,
I must be sleeping

Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away

Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I'm not ashamed to be the person that I am today
These are my words
That I've never said before I think
I'm doing ok
And this is the smile that I've never shown before
Somebody shake me
Cause I,
I must be sleeping

I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me................

Right Here..

I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes
I've made along the way
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But i always find a way
To keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waitin

And if I chose to walk away would you still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting

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2009-04-08T13:31:00.002Z

想跟我吵架
我没那麽无
聊不懂得道歉
我没那麽聪明
好想要回到我们的原点

你又在哭泣
我给不了安慰
我又在摇头
有那麽点後悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走

但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳

你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

Setia Alam

2009-03-30T08:29:00.003Z

Badan cergas hidup pun sihat....

Virgo

2009-03-29T05:44:00.002Z

I came across this from the blogs.

Virgo and Independence:
Virgo is a very independent zodiac sign. They are fully able to put their intelligence to use and get things done for themselves. It is possible however that their narrow mindedness causes their creativity to suffer and they may lead regular routine lives. They may dwell too much on the past and over complicate things and this may limit their ability to move forward and confuse themselves. In conclusion, Virgos are able to be independent but the less evolved types will have difficult if someone is not there helping them to achieve more and not be so critical of themselves.

Virgo and Friendship:
People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. They are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial. A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling. Be patient with your Virgo friend and understand that their recommendations are only to make your life better.

Virgo and Business:
Virgos are very intelligent, they have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind. This makes them good investigators and researchers. They also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and they can often see into people and detect what their motives are. This makes them great policemen or interrogators. Virgos are very good at problem solving, this <>is what they do best. They are confronted with a problem, they will pick apart the pieces and put it together in the proper order. They are rational thinkers and are good at settling other people's disputes and putting them on the right track for reconciliation. Any position that requires the above features, which is a very long list, is perfect for the Virgo. They keep the world in order.

Virgo Temperament:
Before a Virgo plunges into anything, from a problem to a vacation idea, they need to analyze all the facts and know all the details before they plunge in and make a decision. This makes them seem indecisive and slow. Virgo's perception is their reality, more so then other astrology signs. What they believe is what will be, if they have a negative outlook on life, things will present themselves to be negative and they will be very moody and isolated/detached. If they are positive, the same events that occur will be held in a positive light and they will be a pleasant, well adjusted person. A Virgo mind is a very powerful mind and they must have the proper attitude for their life to be happy and successful. Virgo needs to get in touch with their feelings, this is why they usually seem cold or detached. They are very prone of living in denial. They will say they feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. This is an easy way out, the one thing that Virgo does not like to analyze is their feelings so pretending everything is okay is a good defense mechanism for not having to take a closer look at their feelings. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament.

Virgo Deep Inside:
They need to be organized in their mind, sometimes all their energy is taken from organizing their mind that they have a difficult time organizing their surroundings. They easily look too deep into an issue and over analyze what they percept. Virgo is ambitious and strives to always know more and have more. This is in their eternal quest to bring order to chaos. Even if order is obtained from an outsiders' point of view, Virgo will not be settled for they have a very active mind that is always thinking and can never be silenced. Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do. Virgo's major life lesson is to learn to trust in and have faith in the unknown. They have to understand that things in life happen for a reason that is not always known to them, they do not have to always know everything. They need to learn to calm down and not over-analyze a situation or event. Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When is Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it.

Virgo in a Nutshell:
Virgo exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, Virgo presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. Virgo can tire itself out without even moving! Virgo has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. They are pure, their motives are honest never malicious and they want to accomplish something.

Those who had done this piece certainly deserved my admiration.....
How timely it was i came across this at a time where i am still floating in my own world....

Dare era oyu radieng hist?

^&#$^&**(#@&*&*&**(.......

:)

Life goes on....

2009-03-23T13:25:00.004Z

Inches away from hell...

A near death experience........

Amitabha......

Sorry.......

2009-03-18T14:11:00.002Z

Sorry - Buckcherry

Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die

[Chorus:]

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue, I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it backI love how you kiss, I love all your sounds,
and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry:
This time I think I'm to blame it's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame

[Chorus]

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried it's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah I'm sorry!

[Chorus]

I'm sorry baby, yeah , I'm sorry...............

Toh Chin Hooi

2009-03-16T06:02:00.002Z

Once I went to a fortune-teller and she said my chinese name reflected a strong desire and personality. My chinese name indicates success for me....

Success doesn't come without hardwork,isn't it?
Well, rubbish............

I came across an article on newspaper yesterday which talked about life and relationship thingy.

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Value what I had instead of wishing for the things i had missed.......

Perhaps no one would understand my heartache and care for my feeling........
I am who I am........
The voice within me whispers to my ears "Stop fooling around and get back to your senses...."

Reality is harsh on me most of the time.........
Can the reality spare me some time to ponder upon my Goals in my life?..........
At least I can feel better.........
Thinking of what future holds for me.......
Bitterness of life.......
I felt a bit but not as much as others do......

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2009-03-10T14:45:00.002Z

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2009-03-10T14:35:00.002Z

I couldn't smile.......
I couldn't laugh.......
From my heart.........

God must be kidding with me............

Belief

2009-02-24T13:12:00.002Z

When I lock myself inside my room, I tend to dream......
Of a place where nothing is harder and patchy than it seems to be...
I start to ponder and think......
There are many heartaches which life can bring us and what it means......
Things that no one ever want or bother to explain.....

When there's no one else,
When there seems to be a dead end in your life,
When everything seems to go against you,
It's so hard to be tough when i'm so afraid,
It feels like no one reaches out a hand for you to hold...

But I have a belief......all this while......

Look inside yourself,
Like your oldest friend,
Just trust the voice within,
Then you'll find the strength,
That will guide your way,
To make the best decision for yourself...
You'll learn to begin to trust the Voice within....
When I am lost outside,I will look what is inside me,
I can choose to trust no one but i know i can trust and rely on the voice within me.....
I am happy with my life now and enjoy it very very much...
Thanks to the voice within me,my best friend........

I always believe life is a journey which requires a lot of patience and perseverance. It can take you anywhere you choose to go but you need a good "driver" which comes in many different forms. Critics and harsh words are meant to make me a better person. I appreciate everything I have now and everyone around me.

I don't know why I am so in the mood to write such thing.....
Every now and then, I think of my dad.....
How wonderful it will be if he hears me......
I will tell him I have good news to break to him...........

Naughty Niece

2009-02-21T08:05:00.003Z

Her expression when the milk is served.. :)

"I Shy Shy.. :P"

Niece : "Uncle,you shut up.. :)"

Uncle : "You watch out at home.. :X"

Niece

2009-02-21T08:01:00.002Z

Pinky

2009-02-21T07:59:00.001Z

My Family

2009-02-21T07:56:00.004Z

Big sis,mum,Me,Bro n Naughty Niece.....

Mum's trip to China 2008

2009-02-21T07:53:00.002Z

Sis' trip to London 2005

2009-02-21T07:29:00.003Z

Niece #5

2009-02-09T05:36:00.001Z

'I wana fly',.clever gal:-)

Niece #4

2009-02-09T05:33:00.001Z

Posing

Niece #3

2009-02-09T05:30:00.001Z

She is so intelligent

Niece #2

2009-02-09T05:28:00.001Z

Naughty boy n naughty gal looking at each other

Niece #1

2009-02-09T05:24:00.001Z

Naughty gal

2009-02-03T11:26:00.001Z

I like her expression..:-)

A bleak chinese new year

2009-01-29T18:38:00.005Z

"(It starts with)...One thing I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away,It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on
but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried
it all fell apart
What it meant to me
will eventually be a memory of a time
when I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme to remind myself how I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so far
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end......

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter......."

When I am writing this,its 3.50am & just back from my friend's house.In fact i leave my friend's house at around 1 something.
Feeling sad,speechless,emotional,down & stressed,I brought my wife for a training session at the usual spot..Today's top speed : 140km/hr. The breeze is cool as usual & my head is full of unhappy things. I drove around the circuit for i think 6 times or more,well...i dont know...i just knew that i spent 1 hour on the highway speeding while listening to Linkin Park's songs..It was a silent night on the highway with few cars in sight..maybe its because of the CNY celebration...it was a perfect match for the sudden emptiness i felt in my brain...

Yes,i feel sad...I know i shouldn't have put myself into this situation from the very beginning...I know what is the outcome going to be but I thought I could handle it...but i shouldn't put my weak side on the chopping board once again...I am weak in handling human relationships and i tend to lose each time i put my emotion to test...today i finally told you things that you dont know about me...i don't know how's your response would be.....but i do hope you know i mean it what i said in the message....

My mind is blank & i do hope tomorrow's sunshine will brighten up my day but i know i will be awake for the rest of the night...I do hope this story will have a happy ending...I come to an extent where i thought of doing a lot of things to make you say yes with a smile on your face...I found myself dumbfounded and sad when you said,

"Sometimes you make me feel i'm like a little princess where there's someone who cares and sayang me. Sometimes i feel im nothing but just a rubbish to you..You entered & occupied the space then u wanna leave when the bus reaches its destination"...

I tried to give you the best i can...I tried to make u happy....i tried hard to put a smile on your face....i tried to give you a surprise when u thought i didn't care about you...i wish i could do everything for you....But what you don't realise is that there is a boundary to be drawn because i am a nobody to u....i wish i could be a somebody but things are not that easy...Reality is sometimes harsh on us...

I am a person who seldom share his problems..I prefer to keep it inside my heart and find my own solutions and reveal it when the time is right...You may see i'm laughing happily like nothing happen..You may hear i said a lot of craps and rubbish and not serious in my words...But what you dont see is the tonnes of problems and things inside my mind...

By now,I think you know and understand the reason why i am holding back what i wanted to tell you all this while...I can understand if u were to hate me,angry me or even scold me..But for me,i did things to my conscience by being honest to you about myself...i dont want to lie to you..i dont want to hide anything from you...trust and honesty is very important to me n so do you...At least now you know my stand in this story and how i felt about you..

I never felt this way so serious since a long time ago...i wish this story will have a beautiful ending and move on to another level of development when i see a smile from you looking at me and say "YES"....

but.........

Do you still think i want to put a full stop to this story?....

Signing off....
5.45am

Fren's reunion

2009-01-29T18:36:00.002Z

Big boss hse

2009-01-29T11:41:00.001Z

Naughty gal

2009-01-29T11:39:00.001Z

Naughty gal

2009-01-29T11:38:00.001Z

She angry me bcoz i scold her..gosh..

New year morning

2009-01-29T11:34:00.001Z

Cute cute

Reunion dinner '09

2009-01-29T11:31:00.001Z

Wayang Kulit

2009-01-13T07:27:00.004Z

Barisan Nasional & Pakatan Rakyat
UMNO & PAS
Kuala Terengganu

Bermulanya sebuah sandiwara politik yang hangat dan bakal menentukan sama ada sentimen perubahan yang diwarwarkan sejak Tsunami politik yang melanda negara kita Mac 8 lepas hanya sekadar amaran daripada rakyat Malaysia yang tertindas setelah sekian lama atau mereka memang mahukan perubahan dalam kerajaan pusat.

Saya terkejut membaca dalam Malaysia Today sebentar tadi tentang wang yang digunakan oleh jentera pilihanraya Barisan Nasional untuk Pilihanraya Kecil di Kuala Terengganu iaitu sebanyak RM 80juta!!!!!

Dan angka akhir mungkin mencecah RM250 juta!!!!!

DPM Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak mengumumkan negara kita tidak akan dilanda oleh krisis ekonomi sepertimana yang berlaku di negara barat sekarang kerana negara kita mempunyai asas ekonomi yang kukuh dan pasaran eksport negara kita yang pelbagai.

Saya hanya boleh berharap Pakatan Rakyat dapat menumbangkan Barisan Nasional secepat mungkin dan mengambil alih tampuk pemerintahan negara yang kini berada dalam tangan orang yang saya gelar "BASTARDS AND BITHCES".

Apa rasionalnya mereka membelanjakan wang sebanyak itu untuk menambat hati penduduk tempatan dengan harapan mereka akan mengundi untuk Barisan Nasional sedangkan kerajaan sewenang-wenangnya menaikkan harga petrol dengan alasan kerajaan terpaksa menanggung tambahan subsidi puluhan juta ringgit setahun.

10 sen pun kerajaan dah kata terlalu banyak untuk diberikan sebagai subsidi kepada rakyat Malaysia sedangkan mereka sanggup membelanjakan RM80 juta hanya untuk pilihanraya yang cuma berlangsung untuk beberapa hari sahaja.

Rasionalnya?........

RM80 juta untuk membeli impian politik mereka adalah angka yang munasabah....
RM 80 juta untuk menjamin kuasa dan pengaruh politik mereka terus terpelihara.....
RM80 pada mereka cuma angka yang kecil untuk memastikan mereka terus berkuasa....

Namun, subsidi sebanyak 10 sen untuk meringankan beban jutaan rakyat Malaysia yang kini hidup dalam kancah kemiskinan,pada mereka merupakan satu beban yang amat berat sekali untuk dipikul....kata mereka,beban ini harus dipikul bersama-sama supaya ekonomi negara kita terus mantap dan kompetitif......

Pemilik kenderaan membangkang kuat......
Demonstrasi diadakan....
Boikot dilancarkan.....
Suratkhabar dipenuhi dengan maki-hamun daripada pembaca....
Harga barang naik...
Teh ais, roti kosong empat segi, semuanya naik harga.....
Rakyat Malaysia merayu....ada yang menangis menagih simpati....

Namun semua itu tidak diendahkan oleh kerajaan.....

Wahai kawan-kawanku, kamu bukannya bodoh mahupun bebal....
sampai bila kamu hendak mendiamkan diri dan terus dimanipulasi oleh fakta-fakta yang tidak berasas....
Sampai bilakah kamu ingin membiarkan kecerdikan dan kebijaksanaan otak kamu terus dihina.....

Saya bukannya pro-pembangkang mahupun pro-kerajaan...
Saya cuma merupakan seorang Rakyat MALAYSIA yang prihatin akan hak kita dan keadilan....

Renung-renungkanlah.........

Teardrops on my guitar

2008-12-30T07:58:00.003Z

Taylor Swift - Teardrops on My Guitar

Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful,
that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me,

I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
don't know why I do
Drew walks by me,
can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight,
give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone,
as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car
I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up,
but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see.

You Make Me Feel

2008-12-30T07:53:00.002Z

My all-time favourite by westlife...meaningful and nice to hear.....

Westlife - You Make Me Feel

I've been trying to reach you
'Cause I've got something to say
But you're talking about
Just nothing at all
And you're slipping away

We were cryin together
It was a long time ago
Before you walk out that door
And leave me this way
Just hear what I say

Chorus

You make me feel
You make me real
For the rest of my days
In so many ways
You make me feel

I've been trying to leave you
Why should we go on like this?
But my heart can't breathe
When I hear you say
"It's better this way"

Chorus

Ten thousand light years away from you
Keep thinking maybe it's time to let go
But by the end of the day
I still want to say "do you?"
Repeat Chorus (x2)

I cried.....

2008-12-30T07:08:00.002Z

My life for the past one week was spent on listening to musics and reading books. I am currently reading a book on US President-elect Barack Obama by world-renowned journalist David Mendell. The book is about the life of Obama from his childhood days to the rise of his career in political arena. I haven't finish the book yet and what can i said about this guy now,he is a guy who never gives up on his fight for due recognition for his people(black people,mind me). What i saw in this guy is his passion for what he is doing and looking at where he is now (elected US president in the Nov polls),i am not surprised that he managed to break the barrier and changed the perception of the American people about Blacks being the leader of the country.

Even the whites voted for Obama and he gain tremendous applause and standing ovation from the people of America,regardless of skin colours on the night of his victory. I saw on TV there were tears on the face of many who was there and what really caught my attention is even the whites are shedding tears for this meaningful victory by the person they hope will bring CHANGE to their country's tarnished image in the eyes of the world for the unwanted war in Iraq by the Chimpanzee named George W. Bush. Definitely, CHANGE is the buzz word of the year where it brings a sense of hope to the people around the world. I learnt many things from his experience and phrases in the book. I hope i will be able to finish the book soon and shared with u guys about this amazing person which has been voted as the People of the Year 2008 by the TIMES magazine. ( i saw a book which caught my attention in the bookshop and i think by next week it will be on my shelf d....:))

I wondered when will Malaysians can break the racial curse cemented in their minds thanks to the disastrous 50 autocratic years of governing by the BN. I still harbour hopes to see a non-malay becoming the Prime Minister of Malaysia. Before March 8, that seems an impossible dream but now we can see the power of our votes which can determine the future of our beloved nation.

(will continue on this topic when i have the mood. I did have a lot to share about our country's political scene. but now i am lazy to type. :))

For the past one week, i have been thinking about a lot of things. What,how,when,can i and soo many question marks in my mind. Thinking is good for health...:P

I got to know a person who is also a fan of Nicholas Sparks novels. I am indeed surprised. Is this a sign?.. Well,I wouldn't know....

will elaborate more on nicholas sparks subject soon coz i m too lazy now to type....:P

I remember telling someone that "Tears will make you a better person"......

I remember writing a Malay sajak spontaneously to someone on the phone....at least my BM writing skills is still there....long time din practice writing malay d.....is this a sign?i wondered......

Signing off.......

2008-12-21T19:33:00.001Z

Idiots in the world

2008-12-03T15:09:00.003Z

God damn you instead of god bless you. Idiots are born into this world to make one's life difficult. There are so many of them that u can get rid of one today and tomorrow there are another one born. Darn......

Idiots are real pain in the ass. They never do anything and yet they are extremely effective in getting people's attention and sympathy. If i ever have the chance, i will put the shit on their face. If ever i have the authority and power, i will make sure they become an extinct animal in this world. I usually don't lose sleep over this kind of rubbish but what happen recently really wakes my ass up and yell WHAT THE F*$%%^$ Idiots living in this world today.

They can become a totally different person in a blink of eye. What the....

Today they are your allies, tomorrow they can become your nemesis. Even a Iguana need at least few hours to change its colour but idiots took less than a milisecond to change its back. God damn....

As i always said, the power of mouth is way beyond our imagination. Your heart can be tougher than a steel or even a concrete but what it takes to break it is a handful of mouths from a group of idiots doing its magic transforming a lie into the truth they wanted it to be. And the word-of-mouth,as i learnt in marketing lecture is a very powerful marketing tool to sell a product. This, if you applied to our life is a very dangerous tool that will bring ur life down or create a trail of havocs in your life.

People believe that gods and ghouls exists in this universe but from what i thought, HUMAN is the real God and Ghost of this universe. Idiots are great magicians, Fools are obedient soul, Devils are harmful & Babies are toothless. Don't you guys agree with me? When Idiots combines with Devils, havoc awaits you. Doomsday is the answer.

What am i saying? I don't know. Maybe YOU can help me to figure out.....

I am Super Duper Fucked Up....

Friendship....

2008-12-03T14:10:00.007Z

Yang & Toh

Recently,i bade farewell to my closest friend, JEFFREY NG CERN YANG. He's leaving to pursue his dream to become a pilot with ISA(oppss,sorry...SIA Airlines) in Singapore. He is my friend since form 2 and together we have done many many crazy things which when i recalled back now is totally unbelieveable.

Who's the one i spent 8 hrs with hanging at mamak way into wee hours(5am!!!) talking & chatting?

HIM

Who's the one i spent 10 hrs sitting at the now-defunct Bubble Tea stall(the one in the KP's Giant entrance) "washing" eyes & for him to keep an eye on his girl?

HIM

Who's the one that quarel with me while we are falling asleep while camping at Bukit Cahaya?

HIM

Who's the one that slammed dunk my face into the swimming pool at Bukit Cahaya?

HIM & his gang of terrorists

Who's the one that asked me to deliver money to him when he and his gangs play snooker till out of money to pay for the bill?

HIM

Person i think of when i ran out of money?

HIM

Person who always "sembelih" me in snooker?

HIM

Person who always fitnah me?

HIM

Person who is always there to help me when i'm in need of help?

HIM

Person who taught me how to tackle gals.

HIM

Person who deals with bookies during World Cup & Euro.

HIM

A great friend to turn to when i am down & lost.

HIM

In other words, NG CERN YANG,You Are My Man!!!!!!

Here, I wish him the best of luck in his pursuit of becoming a pilot and may all the good one be with him. I am not good in words for guys but i know you know that i know you will succeed in ur life. God damn, what am i saying? Anyway,you will be deeply missed over here and dun forget to come back frequently to visit your kambing-kambing here. Together we Mengembek!!!!

And most importantly,dun forget my souvenirs from the countries u fly to...

Yang,The Great Kambing RULEZZZZZ....

You will go into the record book as the first Kambing to fly....

Amithabha...

A guy n his flowers

2008-10-23T13:39:00.000Z

Mr victor n fellow students afta d presentation..

Bunch of frens..

2008-10-17T16:25:00.001Z

Adp's party....

Bisexual

2008-10-17T16:22:00.001Z

Left-normal rltnp,bf...right-extraordinary rltnp,gf...

Adp party

2008-10-17T16:19:00.001Z

Singing k...

Happy birthday,chin hooi!

2008-09-24T10:35:00.001Z

Leng n jason..d ppl behind tis 'surprise'! :-)my wish is a secret tat kenot be told 5...:-)

Happy birthday,chin hooi!

2008-09-24T10:30:00.001Z

My funny lecturer,mr victor ong..

Happy birthday,chin hooi!

2008-09-24T10:26:00.001Z

My 2nd birthday cake by my frens;leng,jason n tak..a big thank you 2u guys..happy!

Happy birthday,chin hooi!

2008-09-24T10:20:00.001Z

My cousin sis tot im stil 21..haha..

Happy birthday,chin hooi!

2008-09-24T10:18:00.001Z

My birthday cake by my cousin sis..:-)

Happy birthday,chin hooi!

2008-09-24T10:16:00.001Z

Naughty niece n mum..

Selamat bekerjasama!

2008-09-24T10:13:00.001Z

'v wil rock u'

Hard at work

2008-09-09T13:38:00.001Z

600++ mooncake in 10 hrs..hardwork pays off finally..

Home made mooncake

2008-09-08T11:06:00.001Z

Certified : eat n fingers licking gd

Home made mooncake

2008-09-08T11:03:00.001Z

Yummy,yummy!

Mooncake

2008-09-08T09:07:00.005Z

the model explaining: "See.This is the way u hold a mooncake & test whether it is fresh or not fresh. this mooncake is special. One bite is not enough to experience the superb taste of this mooncake. It's my first mooncake of the day & it is guaranteed fresh. My hand is clean & sterilised."

Buyer comments : "No comment. I will see her in court."

Laughter is the Best Medicine... :)

SEFP 2008

2008-08-29T12:44:00.001Z

Im in thr..any1 can point out whr am i?haha..

WVF 2008

2008-08-28T09:32:00.001Z

RED ARMY.....hahahahahaha....

WVF 2008

2008-08-28T09:29:00.000Z

RED ARMY.....all sudah gemuk instead of kurus....especially me!!!!

WVF 2008

2008-08-28T09:24:00.002Z

All the participants n the two emcess....this World Vision Famine 30 hr camp is the biggest n the one who collected the most money...well done!!! This proved that KLANG ppl are NOT STINGY!!!

SEFP 2008

2008-08-28T02:03:00.001Z

Wit my naughty niece again afta d award presentation..so cute,rite..she is vy close 2me n keep on banging on my room door 2wake me up in d morning..naughty gal

SEFP 2008

2008-08-27T14:35:00.001Z

With michelle afta gettin d certs...

SEFP 2008

2008-08-27T14:12:00.001Z

stil hv time 2take a shot with my naughty niece..hehe..peace 4all..she run here run thr n play aroun like mad ppl..gosh..

Star education fund presentation 2008

2008-08-27T13:48:00.001Z

Gettin rdy 4 d presentation..nervous nervous..haha

Star schlp ceremony

2008-08-27T06:09:00.001Z

Eastin hotel,pj...so nervous oo waiting 4 d presentation..

Backpack in melaka 2008

2008-08-25T15:58:00.001Z

Stadhuys..

Backpack in melaka 2008

2008-08-25T15:54:00.000Z

I forgot wats d exact name of tis place d bt i tink its sumthin called fort of farmosa,izit?haha

Backpack in melaka 2008

2008-08-25T15:51:00.001Z

Wheel of holland

Backpack in melaka 2008

2008-08-25T15:48:00.001Z

Jonker walk..

WVF 2008

2008-08-25T15:45:00.001Z

Macam-macam style bila kelaparan..tidur pun boleh gaya macam tu..ishh,kesiannya ms jane..